harassed by my 45

Wed, 07 May 2003 21:05:53 GMT

new screename: vanite mort

new livejournal soon.

"just letting you know"

Wed, 07 May 2003 19:10:26 GMT

cry me a fucking river. im sorry i got tons of you kicked off of livejournal, becuase my entrys are so bad. it's was a fucking song.& good one at that.

im mad. some people just shouldn't post.

brand new is a go. im getting there at 6.

brand new....please please please

Tue, 06 May 2003 23:55:16 GMT

so brand new is put on hold.satan is actaully questioning it. which pisses me off becuase i was soo excited. ill jsut have to see toamrrow.

so steve ill have to talk to you tomarrow to see if im going to see if we can hang out. same with you, frank.

yea that sux.

just hope.

Mon, 05 May 2003 22:08:35 GMT

I stare as my weak knees wilt
longing trying to touch the embrace that has left me
and I had you
and your kindness was there
now pieces of you hate me
I am not a portrait on your heart no more
but I still kiss the feelings that emerge from my pulse
and memories seep from my eyes
knowing that love has gone further
than my soft hand can reach
the utmost apology is what I can lay on your face but
will you still swallow me whole?
nothing can compare
and you continue to dance in me
and I continue to bleed
but nothing can compare
I have killed the one thing that exceeds my existence

_________________________________________
i <3 that song.
i worked today.
my mother needs to get back on her medication.
i have good grades.
im going to brand new.
im going to have a hell of alot of fun this weekend.

i want to hang out on weds. call me.

Fri, 02 May 2003 02:19:42 GMT

blueprintxsanity: davy
blueprintxsanity: davy crockett
kill the faint: shut
kill the faint: up
kill the faint: you fucking hobbitt

wine 'em, dine 'em , sixty-nine 'em

Thu, 01 May 2003 21:12:03 GMT

yea yea last weekend got im some fucked up crazy shit. haha you really want to know just im me. im not going to explain it on this damn thing. i pierced my ear last night it's cute. it didn't hurt and im determind not to get this one infeccted liek the other one i did. BRAND NEW next weds. *score* yea yea bored out of my wits. i have a hugh headach i just got back from work and im so tierd.

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 00:41:50 GMT

irony is a insult

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 19:01:25 GMT

there is life after livejournal drama.

yesterday: barbados food thing. church. saw frank come in and saw frank leave...i wanted to talk to you. nerd. i havent done that in a while. service. blah. home. sleep.

today our plan of skipping and going shopping in st pete was a failure. olivia didn't show up to school. blah! something about her dog running away, and bad haircut. so im here. supposed to start work today but they called me so i have to tomarrow. maybe later coffee, with howie and taylor.then maybe my permit...doubt.

my mother is putting of colouring my hair. this time, like last week she says monday. so maybe ill be blond on monday.

i need a new name. i need to choose one. !@%$# help !@&#%

i love this song. it's sucha friday thing tho. it gets me into the weekend.

you better watch yourself.

your cells run through my veins..

Sat, 19 Apr 2003 17:00:21 GMT

I'm walking towards dead end I'm walking all alone
Two steps behind insanity
There's no starlight guiding my way throught this downward death row
Soon will be the time I have to go...

yesterday went to see gibbs put on a show it was great, sounds was kinda messed but other than taht it was awsome. went to see take these eyes,saw annaliese (spell) nice to see her,.....went with taylor.mink.howie.jesse. to a b-day party at daves church. met audra (spell) she's a cutie. then went to starbucks and hugh out there with 483920 people. went home. today...beach. babysit. dance around in easter dress.

i need name idea;s

bittersweet orgasmic mindfuck

Tue, 15 Apr 2003 23:50:03 GMT

poetic madness drains from my mind.
you've fucked me there too many times.
heart in throat.
I'm all choked up.
I wish I was.
now give me sanity.
this is the love I can't control and now you've lost it.
and you're just so fucking crazy.
you make me crazy.
dopesick and depressed, but she's magnetic.
she's so magnetic.
you make me crazy.
you make me so fucking crazy.
a bittersweet orgasmic mindfuck
or the smoothest sheet of something stainless will pleasure me for now.
and now I find myself where the needle was too weak.
and now I find myself where the razor couldn't speak.
now cover me in your green essence lovely.
distance where I can't touch you.
that's where the gun will touch you.
paint up that pretty face you're something I wish I was.
paint up that pretty face.
give me this agony.
paint up that pretty face.
her makeup smears away with the tears.
that eye-liners runnin and she's runnin away from me.
the lipstick stains like gold and for that moment I wanted to be her.
feeling how I failed her.
and now the drama bites hard.
you're the poison in the bottle in that just knocked me out.
a simulcast signing off yeah mind controls a bitch.
I'm on that downer depressant.
that overcast chill and she's just so fucking sexy.
yeah. lips like sin. die like sin.
I'm on that downer depressant.
that overcast chill.
she's dressed in black and dressed to kill.

Tue, 15 Apr 2003 23:04:06 GMT

ok got a code **thank you** now i need a name.

today was awsome.

Sun, 13 Apr 2003 01:20:54 GMT

today i was at the "beach" no i went to brandon with olive and jake and zach. it was kool. we went to turkey creek i haven;t been there in ages. ssince i was little i used to go down there all the time when i was a young. then we just sat aroung the mall. starving we had no money i din't eat all day. after that we went to ybor. sat around killed some fags. cracked up laughing remembering last night. tonight im at anna's babysitting her younger bros/sis. then i go home. church and then be bored

report cards come out tues. theres alont counting on it. so i hope i have no "d's" yea anyway. im boaredd of this thing. last night was a blast. it's just a taste of white springs. ahh. can't wait

last night....

Sat, 12 Apr 2003 14:41:16 GMT

beach...hung out killed a gew fags...came home...went for a "walk" a 2 and a half hour walk..olive puked at first contact. it was so funny. me, i just couldn't walk. today im feeling a little motion sicknedd but i think ill be alright. man. goodtimes.

makes me sad though...i wouldn't shut up...all i did was tel them how sad i was about everything. or hapy it didn't matter...but all of it was true. like i wish alex would call me sometime and ask me to do stuff with her on weekends..i think the lasst night she's done that i was grounded. theres your irony. i call all the time. im going to stop. oneday, she never calls me back.

i want a lj code. i need a new name. i hate this one.

Fri, 11 Apr 2003 19:15:30 GMT

this weeks acomplishments:

learned tuesdays suck

learned that alex is really moving this time.

learned that church is starting to bore me

skiping half days to hang out with your fav. guys/girls to go downtown/sleep, is too much fun.

weekend plans:

beach

kill some fags

spend money.

sleeping

brandon

maybe calvary

1/2 day.

Thu, 10 Apr 2003 19:50:22 GMT

we had a half day on a thursday and have school tomarrow. explain that..ok well i didn't go. watched my mother drive off and walked to olives. got picked up. wen to downtown. its so cold. sand was everywhere. we left went to st pete. walked around ate. came back went to a rooftop. took a picture of olive peeing behind a building. aha so great. unexpected picutures are so great. went to the beach. almost swam but it was too cold to go stark naked. so nah. it was a good day. tomarrows going to suck. but hipefully we have plans to go to stevies.

|fuckaaz|

long time no talk.

Sat, 05 Apr 2003 16:07:32 GMT

yea. im at olives. were might go to the beach it all depends, yesterday was the best fucking day i have had in a really long time.

school: i had no fourth period my teacher just decides not to show up. so i go to 1st lunch. then =back to class for 15 mins and he finally shows up and like nothing happend we leave, for our lunch. alex and maddie invited my to do the safety dance, which was about the most excersize ive had in a long while. it was surprisingly fun.

after school: went to get permit, old fag lady said no. so monday i will try and get it. went to olives. went downtown, with 6 bucks in my pocket. got a 3.60 latte. tip. 2 bucks left. for me and olive to get to the beach trolly. went down to beach. no money. so no way up downtown. so we were stuck on the beach. walk around, kill a few fags. hopeing that we would see someone we knew so we could get bak to downtown without walking a mile. finally we just decide to just try to get on. but we meet this bald chubby guy taht gives us 2 bucks. we had to be at starbucks at 8:30. we get there acourding to my phone 8:35 were freaking becuase we know if were late were dead. my phone clock is 10 mins fast so we had 10 mins to kill. and for being good little girls and being ontime we were rewarded ice cream. back home killed a couple more fags and slept.

i guess you just might of had to been there. but yesterday was the best day in a long time. nothing went wrong. and i was just waiting for something bad to happend and nothing ever did.

last day for that fun little festival. sunday plans. probaply skip church go with olive and go to beach with her and a couple guys she's knows, the she wants to introduce me to. so thast thats.

today chillin.

i got a hair cut

Thu, 27 Mar 2003 02:57:26 GMT

i went into block buster nasty with my beach hair in pigtails, my face so sunscreened and my bangs in twarls. so ok this ass of a guy and this fat chick are giggling *feeling insecure* i look at her then sighing becuase i can't feel inscure when a fat ass behind the counter luaghs at me. shhheess. anyway. the bald guy goes and gets this little figure of the little girl from monsters inc. and puts it on the counter beside me and goes." do you have a outfit like this? (it was in a monster outfit) i was like "ummm..no" he giggles and says you don't see the resemplance?" im like " *annoyed laugh* haha no!" the damn doll had pigtails and bangs and he was being such ass. the guy who was ringing me up was so annoyed by this guy. i was soo pissesd

i shot the sherrif, but i did not shoot the deputy

Wed, 26 Mar 2003 19:06:47 GMT

oh yes. bob says it all...i need to take a shower. i jsut got back from the beach. i got a new suit. it's cute. but it's not conservative.

church tonight. a definate maybe. communion and alex isn't going. so i think im not unless i got to someones house. call me. 512-1858

yes so i want to do somehting to night. call me

tomoko eeeeeeekkkkeeeeekkkkeeeeekkk

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 06:55:27 GMT

yes so.. watching the ring. got two new cd's. got new shoes. got a new shirt. and i leave tomarrow. *tear* i love it here. you can go outside and see stars. and breath... instead of taking deep breaths every 5 mins. yes so i got a brown<3 puma shirt. i got brown sauconys (surprise from my aunt, she bought them for me becuase she thought they were kool.) i got the early november, and bright eyes. (ha another conor oburst cd.) talked today felt little better. i think i made a new friend by bitching at her. i like her. she's got spunk. haha.

last day here...maybe last day internet for a while. yes so trying to go to that show tomarrow. want to really bad for many reasons... havent seen a show since fata. need to hang out with my friends. need to get out of my house tho i am now. need more space...plus i want to see anberlin adn this runs through.

need a haircut. want to see my friends. want to see marahs haircut.

***scary part of movie the find the well. ahhhhhhhhh tomoko *eeekeeekeeek*

lj drama. don't ya love it. ..i know you do.

alkaline trio and curl up an die are playing on the same day. different places.

summer queen of...

Sun, 23 Mar 2003 23:48:01 GMT

summer: "summer, queen of hats, handbags, and sunglasses..."
suzie: "...and clipies"
summer: "and clippies"
...........................................................

i am the queen of pink lipstick
80's sunglasses
hats
& any kind of handbag.

i am thequeen of everything

i told you that i was thinking of moving east

Sat, 22 Mar 2003 23:22:29 GMT

shes got my hair and i didn't know it.
amelie
amelie II
anyway. i like myne better, it's red.

no shows playing here except twothirtyeight and i think it's starts in a hour so i don't think were going to do that one.

i wnant to go on tuesday, so im trying.

be on later.

Fri, 21 Mar 2003 21:00:22 GMT

note to self : get food.
buy music.
get a life.

your eyes...gasp,sigh...you have beautiful eyes.

Fri, 21 Mar 2003 20:12:53 GMT

cd reviews:
cursive - great!! love the cd. omg it's a great cd. i love it both domestica ugly organ are fucking great cd's
afi - lets just put it this way. i almost felt a tear come on.

im in birmingham alabama, having fun so far. shopping...*screams* score!

trying to look up if there are any good shows comming. i know birmingham has some good venues...so imm tring to think of any possible bnad i could think that is touring. doubt but ill ask...any websites having knowledge about shows in alabama, so i won't have to got to each individual freaking band site. well i know one web site. but... yea bored.

im in a better mood today. though it's official im a girl with a fucking aditude problem. deal with it. if you can deal with that, which half of you can't... your so going to be on my list.

prideful people need to burn....burn in hell they should

Wed, 19 Mar 2003 03:26:38 GMT

yea ive been thinking latley, it fucking doesnt matter how many bands you know, listen too, how kool you are, how fucking pretty someone else is. who the fuck cares anyway? where the hell is that going to get you in life. so fuck you.

no school for me today. yea yea yea...
angela your getting your cd soon.

umm church tomarrow. yea

going to alabama friday...spring break...

god im bored. no one is talking online. i havent been on in so long that the conversations are dull and very short.

i colored my hair again. red. blond soon. very soon.

fuck scene kids
fuck hardcore'
fuck emo
fuck indie
fuck everything
fuck you

fuck war.

sit in corners and sip burnt coffee.

Sat, 15 Mar 2003 18:55:37 GMT

grease is playing on tv right now becusae lazy someone forgott to turn it off; someone gag me. school sucks tho i have better grades. leaving this friday, permitt hopefully by weds. lazy ass me waited 6months.

spring break 7days as we speak.and counting down
hopefully im not grounded for it. i don't think my mothers that bad...but you never know.

church tomarrow. see everyone. yea. ok sarcasm is lacking a little uumph!

im sick of my cd's i need new ones. i got a new one last firday and im sick of that one already. i need good music.

i havent talked online in a long time. and im on now.. no ones on...figures. i need a life

alex better not be moving. if she is ill commit suicide. thats not right...but that would suck, ill kill steven... no ill prabaply just cry, kill somthing, od, drink, and start smoking...more.

*sigh* i need a hair cut.